‘Taking you on proper dates and communicating with you in a healthy way is one thing, but being thoughtful and attentive to your needs and making you feel special and seen is another altogether. If a man is truly into you Gem, he will do whatever is required to keep you in his life and you will never feel like you’re asking too much or that you are hard to love.’

He had never had the courage to face his inner demons or become acquainted with his shadow self*. Had never worked through his trauma or wounding or generational curses. And so naturally, after years of ignoring everything that existed within his subconscious mind, his thoughts had begun to haunt him, and his only defence had been to try and supress them by taking anti-depressants and drink until he was numb. Instead of putting up a fight, he tried to hide, but you cannot hide or run away from your shadows, because they are a part of you. And so eventually, he grew so weak that his inner demons were able to take over and he allowed them to win. And now as a result, his shadow-self* was controlling him and ruining his life.
       

Viewing the four phases of the menstrual cycle in correlation with the four seasons of nature allows us to comprehend what is happening within ourselves beyond just the physical changes we experience each month. Each phase holds a different energy, calling for us to think, behave and move in different ways. By working with your cycle instead of against it, you will learn how to honour yourself in each phase and flow with your inner seasons effortlessly.

‘Do not fuck with me’ my inner warrior whispers in the ear of the immature masculine the moment she senses he is about to step foot over the boundaries she so carefully constructed. Because she does not tolerate the behaviour of such men anymore. And neither do I.

So if a man is not actively pursuing you, there are generally only two reasons;

1. He is not interested because he does not see potential in you as his future wife & mother of his children

OR

2. He is stuck in his immature masculine energy and is operating out of a wounded state and does not contain the confidence, courage or fortitude to take the necessary action required to pursue you

And what I realised was that in order to access this next level of myself that was able to do all of that – I had to let her go.

The younger version of me.

The party girl. The irresponsible girl who had nothing to worry about but herself. The disempowered ‘good girl’. The girl who was desperate to be seen. The girl who did things for the approval of others. The girl who was stuck playing out generational curses. The girl whose only source of nourishment was sought externally. The girl who felt comfortable playing small. The girl who was operating out of survival mode. The girl who didn’t know any better. The wounded girl who was stuck in her immature feminine energy.